Today was a Fairytale

Ok.

So I've got used to me studying.
I've even got used to me studying
every single day.

Bub majorly struggled to get used to it
and we fought
got all red in the face
and took everythings out on each other.


What I NEVER could have imagined
is that Bub would try studying himself

and would, in fact, take to it.

Dayum he's like a lil bookworm.

(ok so that picture is of him reading literature which he's done his whole life but still)

Maybe now none of those horrible stressful upsetting fights please?

With Love, Beau xx

Summertime

Ah sometimes I gasp at how delicious my boy is

especially in the sunshine.

Yep I'm quite aware I'm the only one who sees it.

I had to miss his little fire/bbq celebratory gathering
which bummed us both out.

I plan on enjoying the sunshine by walking his puppies
and it is him who is keeping me sane.

This is an incredibly cheesetastic post.
SORRY!

With Love, Beau xx

Mad Hatter

A few weeks ago Bub gave me
a sharpie and
a white hat.

Needless to say I went to town:

It started with the tetris name and from there went
well everywhere.

As a boy who wears a flatpeak everyday he can never escape me now!
(note: I am not a weird stalker girlfriend this hat holds a lot of meaning even if the childish cartoons don't give it away immediately)


The memory makes me :) legal graffiti hell yeh!

With Love (and good memories), Beau xx

Spring Fling

This week I sort of forgot how to smile

then I remembered all these things
that I love about spring
and I realised that even if things are hard at the moment
I will have many many more springs
and that's a miracle in itself.

1. Starry Nights with Bub are clear and beautiful. They remind me that I'm just a very little thing in this whole world and what I do doesn't matter so much. Phew.
   
2. Studying with tea or coffee is actually perfection. I know that sounds bizarre but it feels so satisfying when you've striven for your own destiny.
3. California/Spring sunshine with long lengthy days, beautiful sunset and generally hit weather all I have to do is look out the window and I'll smile. Everyone loves a bit of sunshine!
4. Springtime daffodils are prettiness. Colour makes me smile.
   
5. Gladiator Sandals are my favourite thing to wear, like on this whole planet. Clearly my toes enjoy a breeze!
6. Piglets! Bub took me farming over the Easter break (we're gonna have to own like a zoo cos we fell in love with every animal - him more than me). We both adored the piglets more than any other animal and animals are absolutely fascinating. The lambs are pretty cute too though.

What makes you guys smile when you're feeling down?

With Love, Beau xx

Wherever I'm goin' I'm goin' your way

Sigh.

Bub epically failed today
but I simply can't fathom myself to be mad at him.

I guess I kinda get it.

He's a smart kid
and he loveloveloves his subject
but studying it in the way they force him?

Not cool in his perfectly twisted head.

I've got used to the fact that I'm gonna be the ambitious one
cos I really couldn't be this ambitious
without him there to catch me
when I inevitably get it wrong.

(ewwwwww - shudder)
My gosh I take everything out on him.

With the exception of my history teacher he's the only person who makes me cry and scream at him like a child having a tantrum (during these fits he amusingly calls me 'princess' - not amusing when I am trying to strop)

I can even wear no make up in public if he's there!

So yeh for putting up with me
and the habits I've inherited for my mother
how on Earth could I be mad at him?

With Love, Beau xx

Disclaimer: this entry does not have any factual basis. In fact it's a load of bull. I'm completely pissed off. I'm just not gonna show it.

Hello, I Love You

Ah I suck at blogging

when coursework is piled high.

(photo from flickr)

I'm sorry I will be enduring the torture for another week longer.

Just a quick note

I was thinking of climbing a mountain
then Bub did climb one
by telling me to keepthatdatefree.

Young one is learning fast.

"I don't know where I'm gonna be in 5 years"
"Wherever you are we'll be together"

I miss him terribly cos things are on the up...
for now.

I have many many posts for all you loves out there
I will give them to you soon!

With Love (always), Beau xx

Sunshine Dreaming

I don't have much time today
I have to study so I can make something of myself.

I love this song.

My parent's divorce (woo personal fact!) when I was 6
has never much affected me
that's not a secret; if you asked say, B, she'd tell you.

But it does make me cautious in lurrvvee.
I seriously adore every person I meet,
cos really what's more special than a person?

But trusting them enough to kinda majorly love them
and bother lasting through fights and hurt
and whatnot
that's a little harder.

So this song is special
because Bub is special
and in my world this song is about Bub.

I hope you guys find something in it too.

With love, Beau xx

Story Corner

I have a story to tell you.

One weekend Bub and Beau went off to London.
They went to a birthday party for his cousin
his cool, successful cousin,
who he adores and gets on with like a house on fire.

I was naturally terrified.
In a pub we stood and chatted with directors and Elle girls
the girls were nowhere near as scary as I thought.

Then we went back to a little old flat
south of the river
sat on a sofa and watched the in-laws get merry.

An Irishman going by the name of Rory
came to talk to us
asked as all the normal questions:

What're you doing with your lives?
Where are you going to university? etc...

But then a question came out of the blue

How'd you guys meet? You gonna stay together? You gotta stay together.

And Rory explained that despite certain first night antics with his girlfriend
(context: Bub doesn't remember when we met)
they've been together 9 years
and are still going strong.

As a result I've kinda got hope.

It feels rather lovely.

Not to mention Rory then had to dash off
to perform the fiddle - it was as awesome as it sounds.


With Love, Beau xx

“I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you”

Trust is a weird weird thing.

I made a bad mistake a long time ago
and although Bub's certainly learning to trust me again
I understand why everyday is hard.

It hurts me that I hurt him.
That's a good sign right?

Another way I get the thoughts out of my head
is by writing songs (as well as letters).
So here's some of Bub's song - tell me what you think.

My boy, you're a little bit too perfect
and why can't you see that, might be unsettling for me?
This girl, is not the type you believe in
Is not one of the people to who you usually agree

My friend you're like catching lightning
so it's a bit disturbing to let you touch this
I think more than it is clearly healthy
about that little thing, that infinitely forever kiss

And maybe I don't quite understand
your precious life and your sweet little land
but think of me as the cards in your hand
I'm the joker you're not even supposed to have

(copyright ..Peter flickr)

With Love, Beau, xx

Dearest

Sometimes I feel like I need to tell people why I care,

why I miss them or wish I saw them more
or maybe even why I have a problem.

Cos sometimes those things just don't get said right?

Sometimes I feel like love has become quite the blase thing
and sometimes that's something you need to undo
to remind yourself what's real
or more importantly what's not.

Bub and I aren't into grand gestures
(you may have noticed)
but for our anniversary I gave him a letter
his 6 month letter.
He needed to hear what I had to say
be reminded how I feel in all honesty
(that's his letter up top)

I think I'm gonna deliver a little letter through the mail
to all my favourite people.


My lesson is learned - remind those you love that you love them. Nothing works like words.

With Love, Beau xx

It's A Love Story

6 months

1. Reading - 4 days where we were glued. We got home. We were still glued. We're still glued to this day.
2. Honeymoon - I became just a teeny bit obsessed. Feeling our way knowing we'd been here before. Surviving to month three.
3. France - together. on holiday. a week where we were glued. we survived. we were exceptionally happy. it is this memory that has been our life support when the going gets a little bit tough.
4. Friction - attempting to plan a future. physical separation became inevitable. emotional togetherness turned out to be inevitable. I didn't pressure him. In reality I was just trying not to.
5. Breaking Point - are we gonna make it? do we even get each other? an undercurrent of this has to work, we have to be together. And so we did.
   
6. Le Reve - we get each other. where it was going wrong. why it was dumb to fight. a week apart we'd never missed anything more. we're forever, or a very long time, or so we will fight for at the least.

We've stopped fighting. We've got past our growing pains. And I'm so sure about this you wouldn't believe.

(he likes this - pale much?!)

I love love.
Hope everyone had a lovely valentine's and a lovely week.
Beau was on vacation = 0 posts.

With Love, Beau xx

Favourites

Bub shaved, just like he promised

so his facial hair looks more like this:


Than this:

Cos although I think my boy can work facial hair
the length it sometimes gets is a little much.

All this got me thinking
because lately beards have been cropping up all over Hollywood
and guys like Robert Pattinson are not working the look
so girls and guys
what do you think of facial hair?

I love my beardy bub

With Love, Beau xx

'you said we wouldn't be apart'

Yesterday,
Bub and I nearly broke up.

I say that meaning that we fought bad
but really we never came close to breaking up.

He does this adorable thing
where he says he's gonna leave,
and looks like he's gonna,
and starts to walk away.

But then he holds me,
or he squeezes my hand,
because he really cannot bear
to see me that upset,
clutching myself like I'm falling apart.

So we fight it out,
fall into a strange confused silence,
and I don't know what to do.
I don't even beg.

I don't think i'm crazy when I say we're perfect.
Because even though we fight,
the reason our fights are so passionate, needy, hungry
is that we're hunting for a solution.
They come from love not hate.

He never does walk away.

With Love, Beau xx

Crazy Little Thing

I'm only happy when the people around me are happy

it's like mood-based SAD,
therefore at the moment I am very happy.
Why? Because all my very best friends are all loved up.

B found her opposite B.
They're slowly admitting what their relationship actually is,
how they feel,
and how much they really rather like each other.
They truly have that sickeningly sweet first love thing going on.

(I didn't realise how awesome this picture was till B requested I put it in. They match in their oddball-ness - it's just all cute)

Then there's Campbell and Gooch,
both people I adore,
both people who are perfect for each other,
and they make each other very very happy smiley.
They're learning to cushion the bumps of lil arguments
that I'd forgotten were ever an issue.

(stolen from B - don't they have eerily similar expressions?!)

Finally, CB found the only guy
that has yet made her consider marriage and babies.
Trust me that's a revelation,
and Mr Greg has turned into her obsession.

But Bub and I are still the original and the best
at least to my thinking ;)

Don't you guys just love a bit of love?

With Love (too many uses of that word I know!), Beau xx

La Belle Paris

You may think I'm pre - empting myself

but bear with me
cos bub and I are very much in love...

since he has the half-french thing going on
this time for my birthday (August 24th)
Bub is gonna take me to Paris
not a-la-plage (which was perfection)
but PARIS

I cannot wait.

oh and he promised to take me here:

I've never been at night before.

Hopefully he'll buy me some of these!!


Yeh, I'm a lucky one.

With Love, Beau xx

Gift List

We did Christmas version one.

Bub gave me his gifts.
They included:
Reese's Pieces
Hershey's Kisses
PJ's
Gossip Girl S1

Oh and this:

and according to him
these gifts
"say it all"

He's a keeper.

With Love, Beau xx

"You're so very special, I wish I was special"

When you put the phone down
and your cheeks hurt from the smiles and laughs
(and you bathe in your victory)....

I think that's when you're In Love.

With love, Beau xx

Saint-Valery-sur-Somme

A walk along the coast

Boats, cafes and coffee
Hand in hand
sun and smiles

Picture Perfect really.

With Love, Beau xx

Paris-a-la-plage

Le Touquet

Sun, Sea, Shopping
My Memories
'It will feel like you've been before'
'It feels like ghosts walk the streets'

oh and you'll never have felt more in love

(those little silvery bits? they're fish!)

These memories are the most precious of things.
More Soon.

With Love, Beau xx

Guess What?

We made memories.

With Love, Beau xx

(more trip notes soon I promise)