And if

If I feel this alone

after losing you for a night

then what does that suggest

that our future holds?

My best friend came to stay

came to play

and it was so much fun.

Now you're gone

and I know it's not 

a permanent fixture

or at least it might be.

Oh those words

send tingles of fear down my spine

because it just wouldn't be right

it just wouldn't be right

for us to let this go, this light,

this night

for the sake of someone so determined

to slight us.

It is clear that

I was given an easy choice

if I had lost my voice

and had failed to tell you that I was done

I could still have won

he could have won.

But I made a choice

one annee ago

and that will last for ans, forever.

You are it.

Believe me, choose life, right, light, happiness, us. 

With love, Beau xx

An empty fear

I am afraid.

The stakes are now high 

and I am unprepared

to say goodbye.

I'm also unsure 

of myself

and you

and my value.

So this fear grows

the happiness of summer

seems long ago

I am lost

for I cannot feel

appreciate

that you will still love me.

I love you,

more than I ever anticipated.

I am afraid.

With love, Beau xx

Right now
I try to avoid thoughts of
the way you kiss my hair, my neck.

I focus on words spent
the truths expressed
the cold, unemotive prose that
neatly
wraps up the matter at hand.

We were never planned.

So I must stop seeking signs
and instead use my mind

not the plague of a child's
view of love.

With love, Beau xx

Location:Torment