The Wilderness

"Honey, we need to talk"

How many times in this year

have I tried to say that phrase?

How many time in this year

have I failed?

And it's for all the wrong reasons

like that you need to be saved.

And I'm sorry because honesty escapes me

every single day.

If this was right

why would my heart decide

to miss him every single day?

With love (always), Beau xx

Finally

I admitted that

what I've been feeling

is more than sad

and that I'm scared

and sick

and you held me

and made it as better as you could.

For that

I will love you 

with everything I possibly can.

I am

so happy

right now

at last.

With love, Beau xx