"I hope I'm old before I die"

What is it with us celebrating

not dying?
I suddenly realised
that that is exactly
what a birthday is.

Well this guy has not died for a long time

my grandad is an
interesting character
but getting the family all together today
with my cuz on Skype from Switzerland
was so much more relaxed
than Christmas/weddings/funeral

and dare I say it...
enjoyable.

I wanna be this happy at 80.
That's all I ask for.

With Love, Beau xx

Honesty Box

Since I've now decided to be

truly blunt about the way I feel on this baby blog of mine
I better admit
that although The Cast and Bub
make my life
close to perfection....

there's a thorn in the side. That would be my college.

There are amazing beautiful lovely people.
CB. Milly. Lizzie. JaG. AliP. (among others)

But there are also those who stare and maintain these fractious lines of hate and unhappiness, of jealousy and bitterness, of popularity and regimes.
And to be honest from time to time it can get a girl down.

Why does anyone even wonder why I wanna go be a liberal-arts-american-college girl?

and it was those girls who made me feel really kind of ugly the other night. No girl wants to feel anything other than beautiful. Luckily my sister managed to restore my faith in this look:

isn't that what sisters are for?

With Love, Beau xx

Fresh tunes are like fresh OJ .

I realised
that in the last year
I got into a kind of top 40 rut
and I lost all sense
of the music that makes me happy, alive and young.

and then I listened to The Runaways.
not exactly new.
or fresh.
or undiscovered.

but absolutely perfect (for me) right now.

(the bio epic about them comes out this year starring K-Stew)

With Love, Beau xx