An empty fear

I am afraid.

The stakes are now high 

and I am unprepared

to say goodbye.

I'm also unsure 

of myself

and you

and my value.

So this fear grows

the happiness of summer

seems long ago

I am lost

for I cannot feel

appreciate

that you will still love me.

I love you,

more than I ever anticipated.

I am afraid.

With love, Beau xx

Right now
I try to avoid thoughts of
the way you kiss my hair, my neck.

I focus on words spent
the truths expressed
the cold, unemotive prose that
neatly
wraps up the matter at hand.

We were never planned.

So I must stop seeking signs
and instead use my mind

not the plague of a child's
view of love.

With love, Beau xx

Location:Torment