Saturday, 31 August 2013

All I know...

All I know 
is that I'm hurting
and it's because of you. 

Friday, 16 August 2013


So here are the last 
little secrets that I have held from you
close to my heart
the last that eat away at 
my flesh 
as I act strong 
strong for you.

I didn't book my escape 
to some far off place 
because I still thought 
like a little fool
that you would take me with you.

I thought you'd want to 
me in your life again.

How wrong and naive to think 
- that -
after all this.

P.S. I still get butterflies before I see you
and when I, once again, fail
to read your feelings
I blame them for clouding my vision.

With love, Beau xx 

Thursday, 8 August 2013

Do you know how easily my tears fall
When I act like I love you
Remind you that I do
And yet you don't love me at all? 

Sunday, 4 August 2013

Maybe I've always had you wrong 
maybe the only thing I've lost 
is an imagined someone. 

Friday, 2 August 2013

The problem is

I can't cry 
in the rain
for anyone else.

I can't feel
safe in their arms.

I can't reveal
the depths of my depravity.

I can't tell
them these depths of darkness
that I reach.

I can't giggle
like a child
around them.

I've tried
Oh I've tried
To the best of my ability
So that when they ask
I say that I am fine
and this hubris of mine
is me.


No love will ever achieve 
the deep tenacity of ours
which reaches our souls
and burns our hearts with fire
each time we consider the
terrible deeds we have 
subjected it too.

It may be fragile but it is a love so enduring

I cannot let it go.

"You hold all the tickets, I hold all the fines"

With love,
Beau xx