Instant

Just for a moment

I kid myself

that there is some innate element of this

that is special, unique, important

'meant to be'

And then you remind me

through my membership of your

exclusive club

that there is no love story here.

That I can fall for you

over and again

looking into your eyes

and seeing someone who I care for

so much.

That everytime

I will get hurt

I will fall on my face

because you have never fallen for

me.

My biggest death

when my heart drops

and my mouth goes dry

with panic

is when I realise you've fallen for someone

else instead.

Ouch.

I will fall for you, again.

With love, Beau xx