Summertime

Ah sometimes I gasp at how delicious my boy is

especially in the sunshine.

Yep I'm quite aware I'm the only one who sees it.

I had to miss his little fire/bbq celebratory gathering
which bummed us both out.

I plan on enjoying the sunshine by walking his puppies
and it is him who is keeping me sane.

This is an incredibly cheesetastic post.
SORRY!

With Love, Beau xx

La Futura

My future is the most up in the air

of any I know
- it's very distracting.

Lemme explain.

My dream dream dream was Stanford
with Cali weather and a flexible curriculum - hurrah.

Both my 'rents went to Oxford.

It gets tricky here - daddyoh to me off for a visit
I fell in lurve
primarily with his pride.

With that I let Stanford slip from my mind.

But really it's all I've ever wanted
but then a gap yah seems rather intense?
But then I would be living the DREAM
but then leaving the boy would be hard?

I dream of Cali sunsets, of ski and surf days
and of doing politics
liberally
with a touch of Natives
and some literature for empowerment.


Yes, I'm rather in a daze.

Any wannabe agony aunts with advice? pleeaaasseeee?

With Love, Beau xx

Mad Hatter

A few weeks ago Bub gave me
a sharpie and
a white hat.

Needless to say I went to town:

It started with the tetris name and from there went
well everywhere.

As a boy who wears a flatpeak everyday he can never escape me now!
(note: I am not a weird stalker girlfriend this hat holds a lot of meaning even if the childish cartoons don't give it away immediately)


The memory makes me :) legal graffiti hell yeh!

With Love (and good memories), Beau xx

Spring Fling

This week I sort of forgot how to smile

then I remembered all these things
that I love about spring
and I realised that even if things are hard at the moment
I will have many many more springs
and that's a miracle in itself.

1. Starry Nights with Bub are clear and beautiful. They remind me that I'm just a very little thing in this whole world and what I do doesn't matter so much. Phew.
   
2. Studying with tea or coffee is actually perfection. I know that sounds bizarre but it feels so satisfying when you've striven for your own destiny.
3. California/Spring sunshine with long lengthy days, beautiful sunset and generally hit weather all I have to do is look out the window and I'll smile. Everyone loves a bit of sunshine!
4. Springtime daffodils are prettiness. Colour makes me smile.
   
5. Gladiator Sandals are my favourite thing to wear, like on this whole planet. Clearly my toes enjoy a breeze!
6. Piglets! Bub took me farming over the Easter break (we're gonna have to own like a zoo cos we fell in love with every animal - him more than me). We both adored the piglets more than any other animal and animals are absolutely fascinating. The lambs are pretty cute too though.

What makes you guys smile when you're feeling down?

With Love, Beau xx

Wherever I'm goin' I'm goin' your way

Sigh.

Bub epically failed today
but I simply can't fathom myself to be mad at him.

I guess I kinda get it.

He's a smart kid
and he loveloveloves his subject
but studying it in the way they force him?

Not cool in his perfectly twisted head.

I've got used to the fact that I'm gonna be the ambitious one
cos I really couldn't be this ambitious
without him there to catch me
when I inevitably get it wrong.

(ewwwwww - shudder)
My gosh I take everything out on him.

With the exception of my history teacher he's the only person who makes me cry and scream at him like a child having a tantrum (during these fits he amusingly calls me 'princess' - not amusing when I am trying to strop)

I can even wear no make up in public if he's there!

So yeh for putting up with me
and the habits I've inherited for my mother
how on Earth could I be mad at him?

With Love, Beau xx

Disclaimer: this entry does not have any factual basis. In fact it's a load of bull. I'm completely pissed off. I'm just not gonna show it.

Au Revoir

This week

I had to say goodbye to someone who meant a whole lot to me

and although the compromise was absolutely necessary
and we're happier
I still lost a little piece of sunshine.

With love, Beau xx