AWOL

It's summer

and I'm free and I'm happy.

But that means I've been gone.

Hey least it's cos I'm happy?!

So the first of these busy bee events
was Bub's
'coming of age'
or 18th birthday as normal people would say...

it was special.

That's Bub with his box.
My mission this summer was to make him happy
and I think this did it.

Though I've been working all the time
so my mission is failing :(

I do plan to make this better.

A LOT better.

With Love, Beau xx

Belated

I'm kinda exceedingly

rubbish
at following up on awards I get.

But I decided this blog might need a break from all the heartache that's been happening.


1. List your 10 favourite songs on your iPod

• Always - Blink 182 - possibly my favourite song of all time. After all it's all about trying and trying can seriously work for your relationship. I just lurrvveee Blink.

• Paparazzi - Lady Gaga - for me Gagita is kinda hit and miss but this song just screams awesome. Maybe it's the psycho stalking persona within.

• Say My Name - Destiny's Child - somehow the spunk of this song just instantly gives a girl a boost of confidence. It ain't really my kinda music but still I loves it which is the only important thing.

• Bless The Broken Road - Rascal Flatts - uhuh I'm a country obsessive. Whatcha gonna say about it?
  

• Ring of Fire - Johnny Cash - classic

• Heartbreaker - Led Zeppelin - ditto

• Perfect Gentleman - Wyclef Jean - Bub has gotten me obsessed with Wyclef. This song is just awesome.

• I Wish - Skee Lo - Yup more old school hip-hop from the archives of Bub.
  

• Creep - Radiohead - Reading 2009 + Bub = memory

• Stay - Miley Cyrus - Ok totally not a song I will love forever. But right now, lyrically it suits mine and Bub's issues down to a tee. So for now I loves it.

It was annie from Youth is Wasted on the Young who gave me this award and I kinda wanna give i back. I also wanna give it to Gee at Pretty Divine, Milly at Mlle-Milly and Pippa at Clashing Time.

I would give it to B at Stars Like Little Fish but that would be pointless huh?

With Love, Beau xx

Obsessed

So I've decided

I will get married in a Delphine Manivet dress.

Although this may seem like pre-planning
I'll kinda explain.

I've always found French design fascinating
and a French wedding dress/evening gown:
delicious.

Maybe this means I should stick it out
with my French Bub.

That's what my heart if not my head says at the very least.

With Love, Beau xx

Pattern Repeat

Why is it that every single day
something small
must make you mad at me?

Cos although I know that
later
you will forgive me
each little incident adds a crack to our relationship.

Those cracks will one day
ultimately
break apart.

Essentially you're killing us
and it is precisely that
that is killing me.

With love, Beau xx

This month

we're going to

PARIS

in like less than two weeks.

I never though it'd happen
and as bub's mother said
'whether you have an awesome or awful time, you'll have the stories to tell'

woo, loves it (and the millions of pictures I will inevitably take)!!

With Love, Beau xx

'Your fingertips across my skin....

....the palm trees swaying in the wind

images.'

it's images like these which means
I can't quite let go

yet.

With Love, Beau xx

'I know I'm not a wasted case'

I feel like I'm drowning

but then I realise that I'm so much more
than relying on other people
than those other people themselves
if they're not gonna love me.

And then you come through for me anyway
and I realise I'm in thrilled anticipation
of where this may go.

((you knew this was the way things should be all along))

Right now I'm alone

and that is just fine.

But I would rather like to be together with you.

Let's feel it out.

With Love, Beau xx

photo credit: flickr

I'm sick of the hurt

coursing through my veins

you leave me alone

when I need you,

and if I was way too much to take on tell me - I choose you.

Ouch

Sometimes I think that you don't care at all

that someone out there is putting temptation in my face
just to rip my heart from my chest
but not yours.

Then when you smile at me, compliment me, make me feel special
my heart soars and once again I realise -
I am utterly addicted to you.

So what to do?

I know what I want.
I want you to fall in love with me
like I'm falling for you

That's all I want
a guarantee of forever from you.

It hurts that I can't yet get that from you.

With Love, Beau xx

photo credit: flickr

Torn

I feel like I'm breaking in half

I just don't know which half will be biggest yet.

Either way this will hurt.

With Love, Beau xx

(falling dangerously in love)

photo credit: flickr

Today was a Fairytale

Ok.

So I've got used to me studying.
I've even got used to me studying
every single day.

Bub majorly struggled to get used to it
and we fought
got all red in the face
and took everythings out on each other.


What I NEVER could have imagined
is that Bub would try studying himself

and would, in fact, take to it.

Dayum he's like a lil bookworm.

(ok so that picture is of him reading literature which he's done his whole life but still)

Maybe now none of those horrible stressful upsetting fights please?

With Love, Beau xx

Blast from the Past

Today is a revision day
like every day
has been
for a lifetime.

Or so it feels.

My iPods on shuffle since I don't have time to choose the songs.

This means that stuff like this song comes up.

You should know that I had no idea this was on my iPod.

Who would've thought Jessica Simpson would be adding the excitement to my day?

With Love, Beau xx

Premonition Demolition

Today I got voted

most likely to marry first

by my classmates in my yearbook.

This feels strangely ominous. Maybe cos it's true that I really am that kinda person.

Would I be a failure if I don't fulfil it?

Strange times.

With Love, Beau xx

(sorry for the lack of posts - my internet blew up. Then I lost my phone charger. The world hates me.)

Summertime

Ah sometimes I gasp at how delicious my boy is

especially in the sunshine.

Yep I'm quite aware I'm the only one who sees it.

I had to miss his little fire/bbq celebratory gathering
which bummed us both out.

I plan on enjoying the sunshine by walking his puppies
and it is him who is keeping me sane.

This is an incredibly cheesetastic post.
SORRY!

With Love, Beau xx

La Futura

My future is the most up in the air

of any I know
- it's very distracting.

Lemme explain.

My dream dream dream was Stanford
with Cali weather and a flexible curriculum - hurrah.

Both my 'rents went to Oxford.

It gets tricky here - daddyoh to me off for a visit
I fell in lurve
primarily with his pride.

With that I let Stanford slip from my mind.

But really it's all I've ever wanted
but then a gap yah seems rather intense?
But then I would be living the DREAM
but then leaving the boy would be hard?

I dream of Cali sunsets, of ski and surf days
and of doing politics
liberally
with a touch of Natives
and some literature for empowerment.


Yes, I'm rather in a daze.

Any wannabe agony aunts with advice? pleeaaasseeee?

With Love, Beau xx

Mad Hatter

A few weeks ago Bub gave me
a sharpie and
a white hat.

Needless to say I went to town:

It started with the tetris name and from there went
well everywhere.

As a boy who wears a flatpeak everyday he can never escape me now!
(note: I am not a weird stalker girlfriend this hat holds a lot of meaning even if the childish cartoons don't give it away immediately)


The memory makes me :) legal graffiti hell yeh!

With Love (and good memories), Beau xx

Spring Fling

This week I sort of forgot how to smile

then I remembered all these things
that I love about spring
and I realised that even if things are hard at the moment
I will have many many more springs
and that's a miracle in itself.

1. Starry Nights with Bub are clear and beautiful. They remind me that I'm just a very little thing in this whole world and what I do doesn't matter so much. Phew.
   
2. Studying with tea or coffee is actually perfection. I know that sounds bizarre but it feels so satisfying when you've striven for your own destiny.
3. California/Spring sunshine with long lengthy days, beautiful sunset and generally hit weather all I have to do is look out the window and I'll smile. Everyone loves a bit of sunshine!
4. Springtime daffodils are prettiness. Colour makes me smile.
   
5. Gladiator Sandals are my favourite thing to wear, like on this whole planet. Clearly my toes enjoy a breeze!
6. Piglets! Bub took me farming over the Easter break (we're gonna have to own like a zoo cos we fell in love with every animal - him more than me). We both adored the piglets more than any other animal and animals are absolutely fascinating. The lambs are pretty cute too though.

What makes you guys smile when you're feeling down?

With Love, Beau xx

Wherever I'm goin' I'm goin' your way

Sigh.

Bub epically failed today
but I simply can't fathom myself to be mad at him.

I guess I kinda get it.

He's a smart kid
and he loveloveloves his subject
but studying it in the way they force him?

Not cool in his perfectly twisted head.

I've got used to the fact that I'm gonna be the ambitious one
cos I really couldn't be this ambitious
without him there to catch me
when I inevitably get it wrong.

(ewwwwww - shudder)
My gosh I take everything out on him.

With the exception of my history teacher he's the only person who makes me cry and scream at him like a child having a tantrum (during these fits he amusingly calls me 'princess' - not amusing when I am trying to strop)

I can even wear no make up in public if he's there!

So yeh for putting up with me
and the habits I've inherited for my mother
how on Earth could I be mad at him?

With Love, Beau xx

Disclaimer: this entry does not have any factual basis. In fact it's a load of bull. I'm completely pissed off. I'm just not gonna show it.

Au Revoir

This week

I had to say goodbye to someone who meant a whole lot to me

and although the compromise was absolutely necessary
and we're happier
I still lost a little piece of sunshine.

With love, Beau xx

Hello, I Love You

Ah I suck at blogging

when coursework is piled high.

(photo from flickr)

I'm sorry I will be enduring the torture for another week longer.

Just a quick note

I was thinking of climbing a mountain
then Bub did climb one
by telling me to keepthatdatefree.

Young one is learning fast.

"I don't know where I'm gonna be in 5 years"
"Wherever you are we'll be together"

I miss him terribly cos things are on the up...
for now.

I have many many posts for all you loves out there
I will give them to you soon!

With Love (always), Beau xx

1000 Words

I don't have time for a 1000 words

I've barely had time for ANY lately.

It's been:

eat
study
sleep
study
drink water
study
eat
study
BUB
study
eat
study
sleep
study
go to work
study

and as a result I've missed all of this

I miss my life and my girls!

With Love, Beau xx

Hey Oscar, Or Not

I totally got given the same award

twice!

Hanku B and Goochy (I wish I could give this back to you two!!)

I like getting a sunshine award
cos I try and be a happy person/blogger/writer
and thus bring sunshine into people's lives.

What a lovely circuit :)

Here are 5 blogs that I just can't wait to read each and every day:

Mlle because Milly writes so frankly about style. I love her honesty, her balance and how she writes about fashion on her own terms instead of copied out from her favourite magazines.

Cycle Chic From Copenhagen - as a girl who rides her bike everywhere no matter whether it's sunny or snowy this blog is like my mecca! You can look so good on a bike and these guys and gals are the living proof of that.

LA Cycle Chic may be a bit repetitive but sun + cruise cycles are for the epitome of cool. Since I'm considering moving to LA it is kinda awesome to see people still ride bikes in America!! Add onto that beautiful scenery and we have a sunshine blog.

Spanky Luvs It - so many people already luv this blog. It's a truly happy, real and beautiful place so if you aren't already a follower might I suggest you are? It will make you smile - guaranteed.

The Vintage Valley is a beautiful blog, full of beautiful styling, beautiful photography and created by a beautiful blogger! There is nothing not to enjoy because this is visually sumptuous.

I hope they bring sunshine to your lives too!

With Love, Beau xx

Sunshine Dreaming

I don't have much time today
I have to study so I can make something of myself.

I love this song.

My parent's divorce (woo personal fact!) when I was 6
has never much affected me
that's not a secret; if you asked say, B, she'd tell you.

But it does make me cautious in lurrvvee.
I seriously adore every person I meet,
cos really what's more special than a person?

But trusting them enough to kinda majorly love them
and bother lasting through fights and hurt
and whatnot
that's a little harder.

So this song is special
because Bub is special
and in my world this song is about Bub.

I hope you guys find something in it too.

With love, Beau xx

April Showers

I know it's typical

boring
not very interesting

but the world really does smell beautiful after rain.

My big sis turned 21
it's strange how much time keeps marching on.

I'm getting kinda lost - more of that later.

We went off to Norfolk
to the beach house
to celebrate
with 20 of the closest friends.

Night 1 - Faboosh.
Morning 1 - Beau is sick - puts it down to alcohol.
Mid-day 1 - Beau has clearly contracted Winter Vomiting Bug - Boobooboo.
Whilst everyone else went and did coastal things and generally had fun
I lay on the sofa
and generally felt sorry for myself - HA!
(then got up to puke every half hour - glamorous)
so bye bye birthday.

Bub also contracted the virus which probably shows how much time we spend together.
I'm still making sporadic comfort phone calls to him on my new brick:
I really must be the most glamorous person y'all have heard of ;)

Sorry world for epically failing to be in touch. A lot on my plate and all that.

With Love, Beau xx

Story Corner

I have a story to tell you.

One weekend Bub and Beau went off to London.
They went to a birthday party for his cousin
his cool, successful cousin,
who he adores and gets on with like a house on fire.

I was naturally terrified.
In a pub we stood and chatted with directors and Elle girls
the girls were nowhere near as scary as I thought.

Then we went back to a little old flat
south of the river
sat on a sofa and watched the in-laws get merry.

An Irishman going by the name of Rory
came to talk to us
asked as all the normal questions:

What're you doing with your lives?
Where are you going to university? etc...

But then a question came out of the blue

How'd you guys meet? You gonna stay together? You gotta stay together.

And Rory explained that despite certain first night antics with his girlfriend
(context: Bub doesn't remember when we met)
they've been together 9 years
and are still going strong.

As a result I've kinda got hope.

It feels rather lovely.

Not to mention Rory then had to dash off
to perform the fiddle - it was as awesome as it sounds.


With Love, Beau xx

Bub's Song

I already gave you guys my song
so here's Bub's.

It's so him.

With Love, Beau xx

Aria

This morning Bub asked me what my favourite song is.
I thought long and hard.
Then I though 'what the HELL, why am I even THINKING about this?!'
cos my favourite song is set in stone,
you might even say I'm bewitched by it

I'll post Bub's favourite song later.

With Love, Beau xx

(btw I *always* love the Ella version of this song- and any song - but try Frank's too!)

when we were young

The things I miss about being a kid:

1. Tag/Stuck in the Mud/Hide and Go Seek
2. Hanging upside down or sideways or anywhichways from everything
3. Giving my mom snowdrop bouquets - and her pretending they were the best things ever
   
4. Velcro shoes - why do we still have shoe laces?!
5. Birthday Parties (I'm the kid in white at the front and those are reindeer antlers)

My little cousin is having a pink princess themed tea time birthday party...
it inspired me to remember and enjoy

What do you guys miss about childhood?

With Love, Beau xx

(all pictures from flickr, with the exception of bottom right which belongs to Mrs Andrews)

L'Academie

I have to say
I'm really rather pleased about some
nearly all in fact of the Oscar victories.

Avatar is beautiful, but not especially riveting.

The Hurt Locker is like no other (and that's rather special).

Precious is just that.

The only thing I'm rather disheartened by is the comic genius that is Up In The Air:
Even the trailer is funny and you've seen nothing yet!

Highly recommended. Even Bub smirked.

With Love, Beau xx

Mon Reve

If you don't remember this is B

Right now I don't miss anyone more
cos she's the bestie
and she's aweshum
and she owns an aweshum mustard yellow scarf ;)

One day I'd like to go on a road trip across the states with this girl
and Diego
and I hope that one day is very soon.

With Love, Beau xx

Pretty Thing

"Oh you pretty thing, you beautifully flitty thing, you're such a nitty gritty thing, you are my perfect thing"

These are some of my favourite pretty things:



1) Green Orchids - supposedly not ready, not right, but to me the perfect flower
2) Cardigans on your wedding day - this is what Bub will wear to his wedding someday, and it is Bub that I love - my perfect wedding, casual and beautiful and easy
3) Old Chevy Truck - aged, decrepit, striking (not pretty), reliable, epic
4) Billy Buttons - a little sun, can you imagine anything more joyous?
5) The Horizon at the end of this road - I can see it, I can almost touch it and I'm overjoyed in my belief that Bub will be in it - it is still unknown and that is just dreamy

More Pretty Things lists may well pop up soon.

With Love, Beau xx

Images 2 and 3: greenweddingshoes.blogspot.com (and associated photographers)
Images 1, 4 and 5: Flickr

Psonar

Have you ever watched your iPod/Computer/Phone

crash before your eyes
and realised that some of your favourite music in the whole world
is gone forever (or at least till you can afford to buy it again)?

I have.
It sucks.

And have you ever been out at a party
where someone's playing music off their laptop
and it's rubbish,ruining the party atmosphere,
you just wish you had your music collection to show them how it's really done?

I have.
I end up leaving.
It sucks.

Have you ever been on holiday
you forgot to charge your iPod and now you have no music
'till you get home,
apart from slightly bizarre radio stations?

I have.
You guessed it, it sucks.

Which is why I love Psonar


It's a free service
where your music is safe, accessible and yours to do what you like with (legally).

You can play it anytime with the psonar player
move it between your devices with the songshifter
and discover new music then buy it with amazon's much cheaper rates!

+ I'm the CIO (Chief Inspiration Officer)
cos it was my heartbreak over my iPod crash that prompted the service!

Try it, I think you'll like it:
http://www.psonar.com

With Love, Beau xx

“I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you”

Trust is a weird weird thing.

I made a bad mistake a long time ago
and although Bub's certainly learning to trust me again
I understand why everyday is hard.

It hurts me that I hurt him.
That's a good sign right?

Another way I get the thoughts out of my head
is by writing songs (as well as letters).
So here's some of Bub's song - tell me what you think.

My boy, you're a little bit too perfect
and why can't you see that, might be unsettling for me?
This girl, is not the type you believe in
Is not one of the people to who you usually agree

My friend you're like catching lightning
so it's a bit disturbing to let you touch this
I think more than it is clearly healthy
about that little thing, that infinitely forever kiss

And maybe I don't quite understand
your precious life and your sweet little land
but think of me as the cards in your hand
I'm the joker you're not even supposed to have

(copyright ..Peter flickr)

With Love, Beau, xx

New Beginnings

I love Glee.

Lot's of people love Glee and lot's of people have been inspired by Glee.
Whether it's starting up your own club, watching more musicals
or just downloading the songs
we're hooked.

So it gets me down when people criticise others for doing these things.
After all, we all have to be inspired by something.

Me personally I wanna be a political journalist
completely because of the inspirational work of Matt Frei
particularly his book Only In America.

Then in my dream world I wanna be a singer of my songs
(some of which I may well post soon)
and an actress in very very small movies
that's cos I love to sing and act.
Jackson Rathbone inspires me in that respect - he makes awesome project selections and stays true to his vision and what he wants to do.

I think we all have someone or something to thank for the direction our lives take.
Embrace being inspired, and others inspiration.

What or who do you guys think shaped your goals and inspired you?

With Love, Beau xx

Dearest

Sometimes I feel like I need to tell people why I care,

why I miss them or wish I saw them more
or maybe even why I have a problem.

Cos sometimes those things just don't get said right?

Sometimes I feel like love has become quite the blase thing
and sometimes that's something you need to undo
to remind yourself what's real
or more importantly what's not.

Bub and I aren't into grand gestures
(you may have noticed)
but for our anniversary I gave him a letter
his 6 month letter.
He needed to hear what I had to say
be reminded how I feel in all honesty
(that's his letter up top)

I think I'm gonna deliver a little letter through the mail
to all my favourite people.


My lesson is learned - remind those you love that you love them. Nothing works like words.

With Love, Beau xx

It's A Love Story

6 months

1. Reading - 4 days where we were glued. We got home. We were still glued. We're still glued to this day.
2. Honeymoon - I became just a teeny bit obsessed. Feeling our way knowing we'd been here before. Surviving to month three.
3. France - together. on holiday. a week where we were glued. we survived. we were exceptionally happy. it is this memory that has been our life support when the going gets a little bit tough.
4. Friction - attempting to plan a future. physical separation became inevitable. emotional togetherness turned out to be inevitable. I didn't pressure him. In reality I was just trying not to.
5. Breaking Point - are we gonna make it? do we even get each other? an undercurrent of this has to work, we have to be together. And so we did.
   
6. Le Reve - we get each other. where it was going wrong. why it was dumb to fight. a week apart we'd never missed anything more. we're forever, or a very long time, or so we will fight for at the least.

We've stopped fighting. We've got past our growing pains. And I'm so sure about this you wouldn't believe.

(he likes this - pale much?!)

I love love.
Hope everyone had a lovely valentine's and a lovely week.
Beau was on vacation = 0 posts.

With Love, Beau xx

Visage

Oh why oh why

can I not make a normal face in a picture?
Poor Bubs!

Do you guys choose normal faces or weird ones?

With Love, Beau xx

Favourites

Bub shaved, just like he promised

so his facial hair looks more like this:


Than this:

Cos although I think my boy can work facial hair
the length it sometimes gets is a little much.

All this got me thinking
because lately beards have been cropping up all over Hollywood
and guys like Robert Pattinson are not working the look
so girls and guys
what do you think of facial hair?

I love my beardy bub

With Love, Beau xx

Contradictions

This song is such a guilty pleasure.

And because I identify with songs lyrically,
more than other factors anyways,
the words remind me of how I have felt,
even if at the moment the whole love thing is up in the air right now.

I love him more than anything but he hurts me (alot)

With Love, Beau xx

'you said we wouldn't be apart'

Yesterday,
Bub and I nearly broke up.

I say that meaning that we fought bad
but really we never came close to breaking up.

He does this adorable thing
where he says he's gonna leave,
and looks like he's gonna,
and starts to walk away.

But then he holds me,
or he squeezes my hand,
because he really cannot bear
to see me that upset,
clutching myself like I'm falling apart.

So we fight it out,
fall into a strange confused silence,
and I don't know what to do.
I don't even beg.

I don't think i'm crazy when I say we're perfect.
Because even though we fight,
the reason our fights are so passionate, needy, hungry
is that we're hunting for a solution.
They come from love not hate.

He never does walk away.

With Love, Beau xx

Friday Night Lights

Friday Night last

I was supposed to go out with B (http://starslikelittlefish.blogspot.com)
I dithered for hours, and kept texting the poor thing
should I, shouldn't I, get work done, or let loose.
Bub didn't really want me to so that kinda made it harder.

But then at 9pm I thought heck it why not?!
I did my hair make-up and stuck some heels on
grabbed my bike
set off
and it was pouring with rain.

Needless to say I turned right back round and headed home.
Rainy nights out aren't so fun

My outfit was still cute though so here I am posting it:

This is the best day-to-night cycling outfit. Just add flats for day! Plus Ashley Greene has those shoes!

Barney looked so cute with his new frog handbag sized lights!

With Love, Beau xx

Crazy Little Thing

I'm only happy when the people around me are happy

it's like mood-based SAD,
therefore at the moment I am very happy.
Why? Because all my very best friends are all loved up.

B found her opposite B.
They're slowly admitting what their relationship actually is,
how they feel,
and how much they really rather like each other.
They truly have that sickeningly sweet first love thing going on.

(I didn't realise how awesome this picture was till B requested I put it in. They match in their oddball-ness - it's just all cute)

Then there's Campbell and Gooch,
both people I adore,
both people who are perfect for each other,
and they make each other very very happy smiley.
They're learning to cushion the bumps of lil arguments
that I'd forgotten were ever an issue.

(stolen from B - don't they have eerily similar expressions?!)

Finally, CB found the only guy
that has yet made her consider marriage and babies.
Trust me that's a revelation,
and Mr Greg has turned into her obsession.

But Bub and I are still the original and the best
at least to my thinking ;)

Don't you guys just love a bit of love?

With Love (too many uses of that word I know!), Beau xx

Velo Couture

I cycle everywhere.

It's pretty standard travel in Cambridge
but I know there are stigmas attached.

Like Lycra, sports helmets, hurting backs,
dirty clothes, flat shoes
and most importantly danger.

But cycle chic proves that wrong.

You can wear heels and cute clothes to cycle
Catherine Baba proved that at Paris Fashion Week:

Your bike can be a practical but oh-so-cute fashion accessory
as proven by the February edition of Harper's Bazaar:

you can carry your stuff and protect yourself
in beautiful, fun and stylish ways
as proven by the London cycle chic shop:

(Deluxe Shopper Pannier £40.00)

I bought my newest bike
a beautiful Dutch import christened Barney on Monday
so I have a feeling
that there may well be a lot more cycling blogs
to come in the future.

Till then go green, get fit and most importantly be stylish:
get on your bikes girls!

With Love, Beau xx

Peace Out

Today this man and I parted ways:

Ok so I'm not that important at all.
But exams (re-takes) are over
and it feels like the future is getting
closer.

The adrenaline rush
that comes from knowing
that the essays you just wrote
could make you or break you
is quite simply astounding.

And I adore that fact
that that cold room
is where dreams might be made.

Oh the irony.

So today doesn't just mark the first day
in, oh, forever that I am free to go out
but also marks
the beginning of my freedom
to make my mark on this world.

London first maybe?
(no worries wherever I go Bub will be with me)

Here's to happy futures :)

With Love, Beau xx

La Belle Paris

You may think I'm pre - empting myself

but bear with me
cos bub and I are very much in love...

since he has the half-french thing going on
this time for my birthday (August 24th)
Bub is gonna take me to Paris
not a-la-plage (which was perfection)
but PARIS

I cannot wait.

oh and he promised to take me here:

I've never been at night before.

Hopefully he'll buy me some of these!!


Yeh, I'm a lucky one.

With Love, Beau xx

Big Girls

My friend Gee

(http://prettydivine.blogspot.com)
kinda raised an issue today:
she made a quiz
all about body size.

It reminded me that in comparison
to every friend of mine
with the exception of one
I am fat.

That kinda sucks. I do worry about it.
Because I know at least one of them who looks at me like I am.
And I suspect is secretly
very smug about it.

And all the girls I wanna look like
with the exception of Ashley Greene
have no curves
whatsoever
and that's who I'll never be.

But then again
at times like this
I think I am ok. maybe even beautiful
at least happy about how I look.

is all this terribly wrong of me?

With Love, Beau xx

Glee

I have been waiting for this show to come over from the US
for forever.
I have a feeling I am not alone
It began on E4 tonight
and it was beautiful, amazing, fun
but most of all it reminded me of how exciting and entertaining shows associated with music can be.

Unless you count High School Musical or Hannah Montana
it hasn't been done for a while.

With Love, Beau xx
(I love the reminder of how British kids dress better than the Americans)

Little Boots

I have a confession to make

I have a bit of a thing
about shoes.

I'm not (that) prejudiced
but I certainly have favourites
such as these
bought for my momma's wedding:

they have bows!
so they're like dorothy shoes
but patent black
so classic
and can be worn with jeans
or a bodycon skirt
or anything really.
(plus Ashley Greene has them - style icon!)

But these would define me:

I love Converse
cos at heart I can be a bit of a tomboy..
well not really at heart
more on the surface
but still they're different
and to me different is good.

Before I met Bub I thought I really loved shoes
but seriously
his shoe collection blew mine
plus all my female friend's
out of the water
in sheer size.

Still they are kinda awesome!

With Love, Beau xx